NIRVANA SLASH ARCHIVE

"I think it's one of grunge's greatest legacy, is actually the killing off of misogyny in rock for quite a while. You know? I mean, really, it was very passe to be a misogynist in rock there for a while. And that was helped by guys like the guys in Nirvana, and the guys in Pearl Jam, and bands like us [L7], and Babes In Toyland, and Lunachicks, and then Riot Grrrl later. So, yeah, I think that's a big deal."

-Donita Sparks, 21 Jul 2015, Women of Rock Oral History Project

Star Machine
Giants in the Trees

If you see it coming
When you feel divine
Did you see it coming
I hope you recognize

And I know we've been worlds apart
Can you find your way through the dark
And it's crossed my mind that
You'll never wanna see my face again

Here comes the part
Can you hear the heart
Star machine
I feel it coming down

I remember how it felt when I put you down
And I know you'll be back for me someday

And I know we've been worlds apart
Can you find your way through the dark
And it's crossed my mind that
You'll never wanna see my face again

Here comes the part
Can you hear the heart
Star machine
I feel it coming down

Yes, I've been walking down this road
Yes, I've been walking down this road
Yes, I've been walking down this road
For miles and miles and miles

The in-Between
Giants in the Trees

Dream dream dream dream
Dream dream
Am I still asleep?

Nothing is real here, is it?
The touch of a flower petal
The scent of your skin on my life
Looking for love that makes me forget
I'm blind

'Cause we're all right

So hold me close
Hold me tight

'Cause I'm stuck in the in-between
I'm nothing and everything
And the only thing that gets me through
Knowing that you see me the way I see you

Dream dream dream dream
Dream dream
Am I still asleep?

Inside the dreaming tree
You meet me there just when I'm all alone
Call your name and wait
And how will you save me save me
When I am blind?

We'll be all right

So hold me close
Hold me tight

'Cause I'm stuck in the in-between
I'm nothing and everything
And the only thing that gets me through
Knowing that you'll see me the way I see you

Are you gonna wait til I die?
To take, to take and breathe
To live for the sign
Are you gonna wait, wait til I die?
Yeah
All right

Will you come, too? [When I come to you]
Yeah, yeah, yeah!

'Cause inside the dreaming tree
You'll meet me there just when I'm all alone
Calling your name in me
And how will you save me save me
When I am blind?

We'll be all right

It's knowing that you see me
Knowing that you'll see me the way I see you

"I was sitting on a small couch and Tad was sitting in a chair across from me and we were talking. Just then Kurt walks in and jumps on Tad's lap and hangs on him with his arms around Tad's neck. Tad says, "Merry Christmas, little boy! What would you like for Christmas this year?"
Kurt then says, "I'm not so happy with you, Santa Tad..."
Tad: "Oh, really? And why is that?"
Kurt: "Because last year I asked you for a rubber fist shaped like this" [gestures with his hand in a tight fist] "but instead you gave me a rubber fist shaped like this!" [makes a gesture with his hand with all his fingers pressed together and straight forward] We all laughed."

-Tim Soylan, member of opening band who toured with Tad, recalling a 1990 tour story (2015, I Found My Friends by Nick Soulsby)

Interviewer: At what point did it seem to you that he was not--can you describe the men in Aberdeen? In general?

Wendy O'Connor (Kurt's mother): No. [laughs]

Int: Well, Kurt seems very, like, different. At what age was it clear that he was not going to be a logger?

Wendy: Ok, I was thinking the other day about how I guess he thought at one point he might be gay, which is fine, I mean, it runs in our family, but I kind of felt that he was kind of questioning himself. He would ask me questions about girls. And trying to figure out how to get one, I think. That's what I thought.

And I think he was really kind of like, wondering--because he was artistic... and so I started thinking about this the other day, and he was really--he and I were really best friends. I mean, when he died I lost one of my best friends. We had so much fun talking about the world and politics and life and music and just everything. We talked all the time.

And he was very aware, especially when I was with three not-suited men, how that made him feel. He didn't like the way his dad talked to me. He didn't like the way my boyfriend after Don treated me. [...]

He and I were so close, and he was very respectful, he was very courteous, good, really good manners. I made sure of that. Because Don had none. [...] We were just really close, and I think that is what makes the difference in these roughhouse boys, you know, jocks--they're more bonded to their dads, I think, than they are to their mothers. I prefer men that love their mothers. They're just gentler, they understand women a little bit better.

And then just being an artist, he--everywhere in school, except for English and art, he felt like the jocks were--you know, I don't know. He never came home and said he was being bullied. Or that he was being picked on. He never said that. I just assumed that because he wasn't into sports [...] that Kurt probably felt a little left out that way.

And as he got older he got a little more shy. Just maybe less confident. When he was young he didn't care what people thought. And then as he got older he became aware that he wasn't like the regular guys. But it didn't mean that he didn't have guy friends, he had a lot of guy friends, but they were very much similar to him.

-2015, Montage of Heck film outtakes

"I know there's a sex tape put there. Just like I know there is a video of Kurt consonant cumming on his guitar at the paramount. The corporate bugs cut it out but I know it happened."

-Reddit user bobthe360noscowper in reddit.com/r/justnirvanakissing

"I met these fellow teenagers, they were in this band called the Melvins. Buzz Osborne was the guru. And he turned me on to American hardcore music, which is like the second generation of punk in the United States. This really independent music - it wasn't on major labels. And there was this whole scene that was independent, it wasn't part of the corporate structure, it wasn't part of the state structure, it wasn't part of the mainstream entertainment complex. And it was vital; there was a lot of great music, and there was this community of young people. And we'd go to punk rock shows and there would be like, fanzines - this was before the internet. [...]

I got into the music scene and the culture of it, then I met this other kid in Aberdeen. His name was Kurt Cobain. And we shared this interest with this music and I was playing guitar and he played guitar, and, 'Well, let's start a band!' and we found a drummer. And then I started playing bass. Kurt was very artistic - he was always painting, sculpting, writing, music, always doing something. And so we started our band and that creativity came out and we had our own identity.

Dave Grohl was in 1990, we went through a few drummers. Kurt and I drove to Los Angeles from Tacoma, WA, which is like a 14 hour drive. We slept in our van in a parking lot on I-5 somewhere. We came here [L.A.] and we talked to some music industry people to get a major label deal. [...] And then we took our leisurely drive back north, 'Let's stop in San Fransisco and see Buzz and Dale from the Melvins.' And Buzz is like, 'Hey, Scream is playing!' 'Oh, we love Scream!' [...] They had this drummer who was really good and played this really big drumset, and I met him briefly and we talked to Buzz, like, 'Wow, what a cool drummer.'

And then Kurt and I drove up 101, we went up north. I think we found a cat. We stopped somewhere on the Oregon coast and this cat came up. We found this cat. Gave it a home. And then we get a call from Buzz, he says 'Hey, man, Scream went down to L.A. after San Francisco and their bass player split. And they're just broke at the singer's sister's house.' [...] And Dave was stuck in L.A. and he got enough money to get a plane ticket and his drumset and he came up and started playing with us, and we were hooked. It gelled right away."

-Krist on how Nirvana formed, Young Turks Interview 2014

"Yeah, things flipped day and night, so you had these hair metal bands and they had these really soft features and fluffy hair, but had this macho bravado. And so then grunge rock came out and we had like, facial hair and flannel shirts, but we had a feminine sensibility."

-Krist on the difference between metal and grunge, 7 Oct 2015 FOX Business Network Interview

"We were at our best when we were playing. We liked to rehearse, we liked to make songs, and play together. That's what we did best, that's when we were happy. I have dreams about Kurt. I'm so happy to see him in a dream, like, 'Oh my god, it's so good to see you.' Then we're always like, 'Okay, let's go play.' We're always going to go play music."

-Krist, Young Turks Interview 2014

"Dear Kurt,
It's been 20 years since you left and I think about you every day.
- Love, Krist"

-5 Apr. 2014, Krist's Twitter